Speed Metal Cowboy: a modern western

ISBN-13: 9781502487063 / Angielski / Miękka / 2014 / 220 str.

Trevor R. Fairbanks

Opis

Country Black metal Goth Blues actual 99th page: "Sometimes," I tell him in a cloud of green smoke. "I know that all I ever wanted to be was miserable. Now I have that misery, in spades. I don't think I want to be sad anymore, dude." "Spades? Ha ha ha ... hee hee hee." Always giggling at nothing, laughing at jokes only he can hear. Punchlines sort of swarm around Shitcan like flies but only he gets them. "I don't even know what happiness is anymore." "Well, you have to find it. Same way I did. Happiness ain't gonna find you." "I don't know where to look." "Fuck, man. You're still the same mopey pussy you were in high school. Have you ever been happy? Like, that you can remember?" "Sure, I guess. Back when I was with her." "Her. God damn it." He shook his head. He knew what was coming but, like a true friend, he sat and listened anyway. "She just made me feel good," I went on for the millionth time. "When she touched me or when she held me it was like she was the only reason for my existence, you know? The only reason I had to keep on living in this damn world was her. Its like all that Gray Darkness in the shadows and the fog that I seem to wander through constantly were gone when she was around. She was my focus. She was my everything." "I saw Hector the other day."