This is not a pretty book. It is a book that contains all the mess and grunge of a real life. My life - with an eating disorder. This is a look from the inside. Written while I am still recovering, this book is an attempt to give all those who have never had to live within the war zone of an eating disorder a real look at the battleground. So welcome, then. Welcome to the inside of my own head. Welcome to my land of thin thoughts and fat fears. Welcome to my attempt to become drop dead gorgeous. Let's hope we make it out alive.