Having just turned 59, author Barry Norman is dealing with the most existential crisis any of us can have - the desire to continue. Dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts for most of his life has made him wonder if there is a connection to his brain function and the events that have dotted his life. Now, with no family left except his 15-year-old diabetic and blind dog, Scooter, he pondered the need to bother anymore with continuing. So, he embarked on a stream of consciousness period of writing to see if there was any pattern in his life that could give him clues to how he has felt...