This is the story of my life living with chronic suicidal depression and the journey I traveled to find health with TMS, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation. It is the account of having a successful career in spite of debilitating depression sometimes working in the public eye on as many as 5 medications at a time. It is the story of someone who was given what most would think is everything in life to live successfully and the self-hate that developed in spite of the education and privilege afforded her.

It is also an in-depth description of what it feels like to live in the "black...