Lying in bed, Andrew felt restless, full of anxiety, self-doubt and anger. He was now president of the architecture company, but he didn't like who he was or where he was going. The pain from Melinda's suicide would not go away. He found himself asking hard questions. "What more could I have done? What should I have done differently? Who am I? Where is God? Where am I?" Life was overwhelming. Empty and alone, he felt like his heart had turned to stone. He could feel the hardness and the heaviness within his chest. Sometimes he could hardly breathe ....
"Today in my prayer of Examen,...