After driving through jungles with a man known to Cate Rafferty only as Alfredo, sitting next to the man she hoped to marry, former priest Mike Green, and careening over the deepest potholes she had ever seen, she remembered asking, "Just to learn?" when invited to go on this trip. She was not interested in getting involved in some crazy international incident. But they were involved. In her frustration, she wanted to hit someone but had to settle for her ongoing battle with God, who usually ignored her rants about the futility of suffering and why He allowed it.

After driving through jungles with a man known to Cate Rafferty only as Alfredo, sitting next to the man she hoped to marry, former priest Mike Green, and careening over the deepest potholes she had ever seen, she remembered asking, "Just to learn?" when invited to go on this trip. She was not interested in getting involved in some crazy international incident. But they were involved. In her frustration, she wanted to hit someone but had to settle for her ongoing battle with God, who usually ignored her rants about the futility of suffering and why He allowed it.