Growing up an only child, Deja had wonderful parents and an idyllic childhood; shortly after meeting her first love Deja's world crumbles around her. Devastating life changing news, compounded with the depths of drug and alcohol addiction leads her into a verbally abusive marriage that spans 25 years. Deja finds herself dreaming of that first love. The story follows Deja's transformation from rock bottom to an incredible journey of one's true self. Along the way she finds herself questioning everything in her life including her faith and herself worth, still she is stuck. Fear rules her life....