This is a story of one woman's quest to find her true identity in the gray area between mania and depression. Ruthann came from a dysfunctional childhood, and found herself battling something she didn't understand by the time she reached her late twenties. Not having been diagnosed with bi-polar disease until later in life, the mood swings she suffered through were baffling. Her story is one of survival, sadness and humor, as well as everyday life. As she makes her way through weight gain and loss, relationships, addiction, depression, anxiety, and bouts of mania, she manages at the same time...