I had a huge God hole that I tried to fill with men, alcohol and drugs. Four abusive and/or substance fueled marriages later, I was broken physically, mentally and emotionally. I did not care if I lived or died. That is when God saved me - I finally surrendered to Him and my life has never been the same. I survived a deployment to Afghanistan with God by my side. I have learned that I can handle anything when I walk with God and follow His will. I was nobody, and He made me something of nobody.