"This anecdotal diary, once a blog aptly named 'Pendulum Pregnancy: A Beautiful Chaos, ' captures a self-transformation into motherhood. It was just the beginning of necessary transcendence; the first step in separation from an insidious mental illness diagnosis that will not allow itself to be ignored, despite prescribed little blue and pink imagination slayers. I grieved, I held fast to the want-to-be existential ways of MYSELF. The break up was intense But that moment when I realized the responsibility of another life was in my arms, MYSELF begrudgingly climbed out of my mind and leapt...