Okay. So no one actually kills themselves in this book. The Coolest Way to Kill Yourself pulls you into the early 90's New York City rave scene, in all its chaotic, psychedelic glory. The narrator grabs you by your wrist and drags you behind two teenage lovers from New Jersey as they tumble through a whirlwind of reckless hedonism that eventually spirals into a dark, devastating world of drug addiction and heartbreak. As a teenager, Lynn cried, "No one is ever going to write something for me." Nearly two decades later, in the aftermath of Hurricane Sandy, Nicholas did just that. The gesture...

In New Jersey during the summer of 1989, an awkward thirteen-year-old who was obsessed with weird music fell head-over-heels in love with the coolest post-punk rock girl he had ever met. Nicholas was insecure. He was a daydreamer, wishing for romance when he was told, over and over, that he could not have it. He was a toy, pulled and pushed, wanted and used, dragged along yet held at a distance. Nicholas fell in with the out crowd, and loved every minute of it. He fell in love and got left behind, but not before she changed him forever. This is an irrational, emotional love story for the...

A Tribute to the New Jersey - New York Kink Community. Devastated by the death of his love, Lynn, Nicholas turned to the community they had become part of: the kink community. He reconnected with some old friends, and through them, met some new ones. Randee was an in-your-face, self-proclaimed slut, and Cassie was an intriguing, intimidating dominatrix. To Nicholas, they were just his friends. Sometimes sex is just a distraction, but sometimes it can help to heal. For some people, sex is the only way they know how to seek or give comfort. Nicholas found an honesty and acceptance in the fetish...