A journalist faces his toughest assignment: profiling himself as he struggles with mood disorders, memory, shock treatment therapy, and the quest to get back to normal.
Twenty-five million Americans suffer from clinical depression. But Ned Zeman never thought he d be one of them. He had a great life and thriving career at Vanity Fair.

Then, at age thirty-two, anxiety and depression gripped Zeman with increasing violence and consequences. He experimented with therapist after therapist, medication after medication, hospital after hospital including McLean Hospital, the...