This book describes my unique, personal and professional journey not only as an ordained minister of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, but also as a catalyst and missionary. The book title has derived from my battle within me and within the church world that I should be ashamed of the passion and calling God has given me. It depicts my own transofrmation in going thru tests, trials, failures and successes, but always focused on finishing the race that is set before me. It has meant joy and tears, but thru it all, God has been faithful. His faithfulness has been my shield and rampart.