Esther Armah is a black British journalist, with a troubled soul and a questioning mind. She's an addict. Addicted to the need for approval, the desire for applause, bright lights and struggle. She's also on a quest. Hungry for a place of belonging, a place of comfort and acceptance of her identity; black, British, Ghanaian and Afrocentric. That need becomes intertwined with her chosen profession - the media. Can she find a place of refuge in her travels and her profession? Esther decides to fight her fix and come clean. Getting clean means spilling the beans. So starting with her family all...