Dear, dear Richard, I do care about you but we must be careful. I am climbing out of the depths of despair and you gave me a hand to help me up. We must be sure that what we feel is real and not just a fantasy we are using to heal our wounded hearts. We cannot build a life on fantasy; it will not stand the test of time.

I know you promised Nicky that you would take care of me but that does not mean you have to love me. It is enough that you are taking care of his children. That you are telling them about their father and his faith. You don't owe me anything If you come to me it must be...