"During my years as a patient, I felt a guilty and unshakeable conviction that I was completely sane. Of course, my notion that patients were expected to be crazy was a naive one, but I had swallowed whole the ideology that connects madness to beauty of spirit. In fact, I wasn't interested in being happier, but in growing more poignantly, becomingly, meaningfully unhappy."Here, in her own words, is Emily Fox Gordon, therapy veteran, sometime mental patient, and a prize-winning essayist whose writing Rosellen Brown has praised as "acute and engaging... a combination of wit, rigor and deep...