Preface Introduction Part I. The First Year: Getting Through 1. January 9, 1997, 2:40 p.m. 2. As the Seasons Change 3. Diagnosis 4. The Plan 5. The Training 6. The First Week 7. Finding Our Way 8. New Identities, New Perspectives 9. Why Cancer? Why Now? Why Us? 10. Surviving 11. I Just Want to Live in the Moment 12. And How Is Mom? 13. Who Is This Child? 14. Finding Normal 15. Sailing Forward Part II. Treatment Years 2–3: The New Normal 16. Expectations 17. Always on Call 18. Can't Escape Cancer 19. Decisions, Decisions 20. The Last Lap 21. Celebrate! Part III. The Decade After: Moving 22. Facing Fears 23. Wake-Up Call 24. Hawaii as Refuge 25. Reclaiming Childhood 26. Taking On 27. It's Okay to Cry 28. Letting Go 29. Shadows of the Heart Epilogue Acknowledgments Bibliography Index