Introduction: The Wonderful World of Color 1 Part I. All the Way to the Deep End 5 1 Bone Marrow Biopsy 6 2 Day Zero 11 3 Induction 19 4 A Bumpy Road 28 5 Complications 35 6 Living with What Do You Call It 61 Part II. Transplantation: From Hither to Yon 85 7 Limbo 86 8 Second Year, Second Medical Center 94 9 Final Preparations 102 10 Transplant 115 11 Home Again, Again 132 12 Fog 140 13 GVHD and PUVA 148 14 New Troubles: Diabetes and Pain 164 Part III. Heart to Heart 175 15 Questions 176 16 Did You Get That? 186 17 Supports 193 18 Alert Again 199 19 Speaking of Death 211 20 The Happy Sad Birthday 237 21 The Reader 245 22 Molly's Birthday 251 23 Time 255 Epilogue: Through Loss, Deeper Hues 263 Acknowledgments 272 Index 275